That "F@ck This Sh#t" Attitude

Saturday. If only I had slept in. I could really use a sleep-coma right about now. I have so much stuff to do I'm starting to get that "fuck this shit" attitude about everything. Kind of disappointing. I thought I'd have everything together now, but no. But whatever, right? The whole deal with the Boston Marathon bombing on Monday makes my issues pale in comparison, unfortunately. If only problems only got as bad as mine, then things wouldn't be so bad.

Some cool OBEY(R) print/thing.

It is really hard for me to grasp my mind around events like that. I can understand mental illness, but not violence due to religious issues. I know the US has had dark moments in the past, horrible atrocities and crimes, but I'd like to see what country doesn't. I'd like to see which country is doing so fucking well, where life is just some candy land fantasy. There's no such place. The US has made bad decisions, sure. Everybody has. The hate and misunderstanding of Americans is NO EXCUSE to kill. I don't get why people justify killing because they are different. Your Christian, I'm pagan, and you think I'm going to hell? So be it. I'm Catholic, your Christian, and I think your religion is an incomplete version of mines? So what? It shouldn't matter that damn much. There is no need to kill. Killing should ONLY be justified by survival, in defense of your own life. But you shouldn't just go kill everybody that doesn't think like you. Oh, you don't like the color blue? SHOOT. Oh, you like Justin Bieber? SHOOT. Oh, you don't think tacos are amazing? SHOOT.

Human lives are worth more than that.

The hell is wrong with humanity nowadays? Why act so primitively? Like frightened animals that attack everything out of fear?

And on top of that, there are people that are saying 9/11 and the Boston Marathon bombings are government setups and that the victims were actors. I don't care how good your movie makeup artists are, I'm sure they can't just make your fucking leg disappear. That's computer work. And the bombing was recent. More than 25 people ended up with one or both legs amputated. Their blood was SPLATTERED on the damn asphalt! You have no fucking consideration if you have the guts to go talk like that while people are suffering and struggling to cope with their new reality. People DIED in that bombing. The nation took a hit that day. You are an asshole if you want to say that this event was "victimless." Did they want to see it with their own eyes? The carnage? It makes no sense to me.

But, as terrible as it is, I think tragedy is the best teacher. Nothing happens until something goes wrong. Altogether, I think this year and last year are some bloody violent years. Many of the years before too. Mexico goes down with drug cartel gang wars and hundreds, thousands, die. Newtown. Babies die. They were kindergarteners, just babies. Innocent children, dammit. Shows how prepared we are, doesn't it? I can just buy a big military automatic weapon, force my way into a school, and shoot everybody up. The bombing. Everything. Just so much bloody violence.

Sorry, you guys. I just really am not up for life right now. Like I mentioned, it's that "fuck this shit" attitude that's got me going, you know it. It's that feeling you get when you wait up and you just want to punch somebody and go back to sleep because you're not ready to deal with life. It's one of those days. Hell, it's been like that for quite some days now. Somebody should message me and tell me all about themselves or any random thing 'cause right now I don't have time for my own life. I'd rather listen to other people and watch movies and read books that take you away.

 

I can't be the only one who loses faith in humanity, right? Sometimes, I just have my doubts about people. We don't seem to be moving forward. I don't seem to be moving forward. Everything seems like a stupid cycle of going through the motions. I can't be the only one who sees this, right?

I guess it doesn't matter.

Later, my anons, the strangers that somehow manage to restore my faith in humanity, you great people. I love you guys, you know that right? Friends are family, man. Strangers are hope. 

PEACE OUT.