Buying a Lifestyle

I'm not sure what I'm looking for in life. Money is nice, success would be wonderful, happiness would be most exceptional. Can I have it all? Do I even want it? People would ask me, what do you want to be? I always reply, "I want to be a multi-billionaire," to which they'd always give me this incredulous look, like I'd just said something so shallow and ambitious and childlike that it was shocking. So, they'd say, "What for?" to which I would say, "So that I can afford to be poor." This puzzles a lot of people.

I don't necessarily mean that I want to be homeless or anything. I just want to afford a simple lifestyle, free or worry. I don't want to struggle to make ends meet every week, but I certainly don't want to lead a filthy-rich, flamboyant lifestyle, ya know? I want the money to be a well-handled secret. That way, I won't be troubled so much by people trying to separate me from my money, befriending me for the sole purpose of selfish materialistic gain.

I just want financial security, enough to hold me up and my wildest dreams. I want to be able to drop everything and take a road trip just because I can. I won't show up in Las Vegas, trying to act like I own the place. I just want to travel quietly, admiring life in other places. Life is full of enough worries as it is. You lose friends, miss payments, lose money, fail, get back-stabbed, and you move on. I have done a lot of moving on, and while a lot of painful things have happened to me, I would not take anything back. My experiences have made me who I am, they shaped my personality. There is no happiness without sadness, no solitude without loneliness, and no success without failure. It hurts, sure, there's no doubt about that. But that's life.

Well, yeah. Anyway... bye. Heheh.